Well it finally got me. After two years of escaping its clutches I went down with the new surge of CoVid in Wales.
I had to stay home for a week and spent much of it in bed.
I lay there in a rather sweaty state and I began to run through all the changes in my magical world over the last 40 years.
From beginnings where I practised alone to running a thriving group of very different individuals, who have their own way of doing things along with the DragonOak way of doing things.
From being worried about "doing it Right" to not really caring as long as the magic works.
From being Heirarchical in my practise with Gods,Angels and kabbalistic to being animisitc in my practise and then realising that you can have both practises and one does not wipe out the other.
From abiding by rules like the Threefold Law and Harm none to realising that these rules are control mechanisms that stem from a belief that there is a good and a bad way to use magic. That magic for the self is black and magic for others is white. That magic for removal or destruction or binding is evil and magic for growth and increase is good.
From reading a book which tells you how to do something to using my experience to construct my own work.
From valuing others experience over my own to realising that your own experience is the only one that matters.
From dismissing writings that are "Channeled" to realising Its all channelled :)
From fearing change to understanding that change is a necessity for there to be any sort of growth. This includes change in your philosophy, understanding of the world and also the focus of your magic. I am not the same practitioner that I was 10 years ago that doesnt make it better or worse just different.
I wrote this a while back when I was in the midst of some major changes which at the time I felt were not good. But turns out they were essential in the development of both my group and my own magical direction and focus
When your ego says zig and life says fuck that zag bitch.
When you get in your groove and your groove opens into a chasm which has you falling
Or is it flying
Depends on how you view it
Change makes thought
Thought begets growth
Growth begets new cycles
New cycles begat new learning
New learning makes for a bigger life
All hail Eris, maker of change
Defeater of plans and maker of new ones
Change is a constant in the craft, people may tell you that you need the old ways and yes you do but unless they are in line with your current thoughts, they won’t work. Embrace change in you and in your world.